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If I've never met you than you are a complete fiction in my mind. How is it that I have so many fictions in my life and so few realities. Generations before us I'm sure had plenty of fictions; gossip about other people they did not know, but never so much as now. Discussing theories about people we know nothing about. All shadows.


Tribal skirmishes dominate the digital landscape. Connection has increased, understanding has decreased.


Out of context everyone is a monster, within context everyone is a human being. If you are seeing a monster, you don’t know enough context.

Dumb metaphors

You can’t make an omelette without breaking a few eggs, but you can make scrambled tofu and no one gets hurt.


When the rhythm of normalcy is no longer tapping away in the background, you have to find your own steady beat.

Fight Club

The one movie and book that had the biggest impact on my life was Fight Club. It not only shaped many of my beliefs about society, but even had an impact on some of my friendships as I was growing up, for better or worse.

It did not introduce me to a lot of concepts or ideas that I had never considered, but more that it presented those concepts as a game to be played and as real life with consequences simultaneously. Because of this it was incredibly dark/sad as well as funny/inspiring. It was fun to make-believe that you were going to start a revolution to overturn consumerist culture and globalist apathy, and it was also scary the more you pushed those concepts.

Over 20 years later, it feels incredibly relevant now.

"Warning: If you are reading this then this warning is for you. Every word you read of this useless fine print is another second off your life. Don't you have other things to do? Is your life so empty that you honestly can't think of a better way to spend these moments? Or are you so impressed with authority that you give respect and credence to all that claim it? Do you read everything you're supposed to read? Do you think every thing you're supposed to think? Buy what you're told to want? Get out of your apartment. Meet a member of the opposite sex. Stop the excessive shopping and masturbation. Quit your job. Start a fight. Prove you're alive. If you don't claim your humanity you will become a statistic. You have been warned."

"Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything. Nothing is static, everything is evolving, everything is falling apart."


In the 2000’s it was super lame to be really into things. I blame music blogs for this. Today it’s super cool to be really into things. I blame podcasts for this.

Complicated Cinematic Universe Timelines

This film’s story takes place during the time of the original trilogy, at the same time as the second installment, but more specifically just after the protagonist says “let’s get lunch.” And just before the heroine replies with “ok”.


Let he who is without sin cast the first stone. Unless you're on twitter, then fire away!

The space you inhabit pt.2

I’m at an 83% comfort with the space that I inhabit, 83% of me knows that I deserve to exist here. I feel like if I ever hit 100% I would die or become a psychopath, not sure how this works.


Do shows like the X-Files still exist and I’m just not paying attention? Or was that a one-time awesome concept that no one has been able to recreate. I guess Stranger Things is pretty close, never mind.


I came to the realization that They Might Be Giants is basically a kids band, then I found out that they are in fact a kids band.

Just Don't Look

Hey, Springfield! Are you suffering from the heartbreak of monster-itis? Then take a tip from Mr. Paul Anka!

Paul Anka:
To stop those monsters, one-two-three
Here's a fresh new way that's trouble-free
It's got Paul Anka's guarantee

Guarantee void in Tennessee

Paul Anka and Lisa:
Just don't look! Just don't look! (x2)


Why do I find myself defending Paul McCartney? Shouldn’t he just get a free pass.

Order of things

First comes not caring what other people think. Then comes brilliance.

So 90’s

Isn’t tiktok so 90’s, like a 90’s board game, lip syncing challenges with your friends in your living room and then putting it all on vhs, doing the thing with the eyes. Even the logo. So 90’s.

Another one in the can

At some point your age really is just a number and has absolutely no relevance to what happens day to day. I’ve never felt younger, or older in my life. What does that mean? No clue. Here’s to me.

Why? pt. 2

Let's take this a step further. In the case of a single primary leader for an entire country, what actually changes in regards to laws, policies and funding, does not most of this have to be voted in via congress. What does putting a single face on this process do other than turn it into a drama vs. a bureaucratic process? If anything Trump has exposed the dangerous divisive nature of a single face to represent a top down government which involves thousands of people to function. It is well known that local government has more impact to your day to day life and the people and neighbourhoods you care about. He stands as the winner of the wrestling match, but his drama has brought to light what people have secretly known all along. That wrestling is fake. Unfortunately for the audience the blood being spilt is real.

All In

Does the world need more trolls, contrarians, or devil's advocates? Let's all just put our cards face up on the table.


Why do we need leaders? What use do they serve at this point? In the age of aggregators and Mechanical Turks.


People are realizing how they can work together now on a global scale. A real movement is happening, it’s been a long time coming, but it’s here you can feel it, it’s palpable. Stay the course.



Public Shaming

If people keep overreacting to other people's viewpoints, no one will say anything for fear of shame and persecution.

News cycle

Like trying to fall sleep when you’re high. Never has the world felt so fascinating and so exhausting.

Head in the sand

Where did I go? Back into my own thoughts. Back into my own private world. Coming up for air only occasionally to see if things had changed.


The art of bullshitting is complicated and takes years to master, that’s why kids tell it to you straight.


Time to clear my head and start over again, I can’t tell if these posts are getting worse or better or staying the same. I thought it would get easier to write something everyday, I thought the inspiration would come quicker. Mostly I think it’s becoming more and more difficult.


I think it’s more interesting to view social media as a large sculpture we’re all slapping bits of clay onto, like a collective art project, rather than a form of direct communication. It justifies its showiness this way.

More than semantics

What you don’t say can be just as important. The music is in the space between the notes too.

Paradigm Lost

“Change happens when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change.” - Tony Robbins.

I'm thinking of this quote and how it relates to change not on a personal level, but on mass scale, revolutions. The pain of what is and the pain of what was is no longer acceptable. It's messy to change and it's only going to get messier, but hopefully change is seen through until the end, until the current status quo becomes alien. A paradigm shift.


If something is too difficult for the human mind to comprehend, maybe it’s meant to be left that way.

Potato potato pt.2

Semantics do matter, insofar as how people are interpreting what you are saying, but they do not matter nearly as much as attitude and action. Semantics determine your followers, everything else determines your legacy.


Being a a good standup comic is an exceptional talent. A solo live performance without props or instruments for one hour, no breaks, getting the audience to react consistently in a very specific way. What a feat that is?

Level ground

Criticism for certain wealthy people often comes only from a place of jealously. If one wealthy person criticizes another it is instantly more valid.

Born this way pt. 2

I think I was a bit callous on this subject 2 days ago. What I was getting at was the fact that in music more than any other art form people rip off melodies, lyrics and beats all the time and it's rarely punished as copyright infringement. There are only a few cases of this and even then I find the music making public sympathetic to the defendants. I think musicians have an inherent understanding that just because we came up with the melody does not mean that we own it forever more. That it must transform and evolve to reach its potential.

Ill Communication

The result of bad communication is anxiety. Pieces of information left unclear or scrambled leave the receiver confused and unsettled. That's why good communication is often the deciding factor for employers. It matters more than skill or education.

Born this way

When writing songs, it’s very easy to rip people off and usually not that frowned upon. So why not do it!

Potato potato

Most of my disagreements revolve around semantics, so why even bother disagreeing? There’s nothing fundamental here. It’s all just practice for a real disagreement.

A wise man once told me

Don’t argue with fools. Because people from a distance can’t tell who is who.


There's an ocean of self we keep secret from even our closest friends. That's okay, we'll hand out small pieces as gifts every now and then.

Get this party started

I always feel like I’m giving Pink either too much credit, or not enough. This is something I need to resolve.

Zen and the art of the basketball

The Last Dance was more spiritual / philosophical than I expected. References to Jordan always being in the moment, creating mental motivations for himself that may or may not have actually happened, never thinking about missing a shot, overcoming mental and physical pain (both him and Scottie) and of course Phil Jackson’s gravitation towards Native American wisdom and spirituality, which guided his relationship as Rodman’s coach.


If I unfollow you, don’t take it personally. It doesn’t mean I don’t like you as a person. I don’t like the life you’ve curated for my entertainment.

Be my little baby

Remember when pop music was about kisses and hugs? Neither do I, I was born in the eighties.


Is it too late to learn biochemistry so that I can feel like I have some sort of control in this situation? They have online courses for that right?

Dear world,

When can things feel normal again?
World: Let us get back to you on that.

I drink it up!

The selfish seem a little bit bolder than they once were. If Daniel Plainview did not have a cheery and professional front upon first introduction.


The progression of my inner dialogue through every milestone my child accomplishes. “This is going to take a while.”, “How do you not get this by now?”, “WOW you got that really quick! That’s amazing!”


Apple you thought were so smart with this Face ID, didn’t you? Now everyone has to wear masks. Where’s my Touch ID? Gone...gone forever. You blew it.

Couples retreat

Some days I can do this for another year, other days I can’t do it another minute. If we approach it like a creative retreat, like something we inflicted upon ourselves, and I suppose in a way we did, we can handle it. Like running a marathon, taking a vow of silence.


One fear can stop a million ideas.


Making the best of an alternate reality.


That joke isn’t funny anymore. The Smiths knew what was up. Bad jokes tire quickly when they are about exhausting situations. I’m anti-censorship, no one should stop you from saying your dumb joke. But maybe we should all just collectively let the crickets enjoy this one.


I guess we know how useless guns are now, you can’t even get your job back with them.

Another day at the office

Are we starting to get more lax when it comes to this social distancing stuff? Now that it feels like a job you don’t really want to do. Maybe you’re not always 6 feet apart from one another. You’re not washing your hands as often, you don’t wipe everything down with sanitizer before it comes in your house. A subtle protest, like stealing pens from work or showing up late for a meeting.


How often would I rather just be silent than speak? Is there safety in silence. Maybe it holds us back, maybe it saves us.

We see you

Killer bees trying to rebrand themselves as murder hornets.


Everything is so sanitized these days.


In the plot of the terrible Adam Sandler movie Click, a magical TV remote gives Sandler’s character the ability to fast forward through parts of his life he deems boring, monotonous or painful. As he does this with more and more frequency, his life quickly unravels as the remote begins to learn and predict which parts of his life he’d like to skip over. Eliminating any opportunity for growth and development, he ends up losing everything he held dear. The lesson: What is most valuable in this life is found by understanding and accepting the hardship and pain associated with achieving and overcoming obstacles. All that being said, I’d really like to fast forward the hell out of this nonsense right now.

a beautiful mess

My son is failing incredibly lately while talking and it's making me happy. Not because he's falling back on his development, he's not. But because he's extending himself much farther. No longer is he putting two or three words together simply and succinctly to get his wants across. He's aiming for full sentences with descriptive words, and colloquial additions, he's telling a story and he's just bulldozing through all of it while picking up a few extra syllables here and there and dropping a few others on the way, and half the time I have no idea what he's saying.

no holds barred

I became interested in coding after getting into Silicon Valley and Mr. Robot, then The Big Short got me really interested in trading. As a kid wasn't this the same, after watching Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and Karate Kid, didn't you want to kick your friend in the face, or arm wrestle after watching Over the Top?

Party lines

American politics is a black hole. Like a black hole, it’s gravity is crushing, at a certain point there is no escape. Was there ever a time when it wasn’t a black hole? Civil wars, assassinations, impeachments; all par for the course. How many Canadian prime ministers have been assassinated?


The living have taken over the cemetery. It’s all we have.

Because we care

When gratitude and loyalty are expected responses from an individual to a corporation, the implication is that the corporation is doing something for you out of kindness. How often is kindness the motivation for a corporate entity, even in charity? People are mostly good, but a company is soulless by design, and there’s nothing wrong with that, as it is an abstract construct, just don’t let branding fool you.


I know things are not quite normal, but they are starting to feel less strange. I underestimated our ability to adapt.

He's not wrong

If Lysol kills viruses, injecting yourself with Lysol would kill the virus, or inhaling large amounts of any disinfectant, bleach, would kill the virus in your lungs as well. I suppose setting yourself on fire would kill it. Or if you could fire a gun and aim it directly at one of the virus particles on your skin or in your blood you might be able to eliminate it. Standing on the surface of the sun would probably kill it too. Talk to your doctor first.

Stockholm Syndrome

Do you think we'll miss it? Being forced to stay at home, being separated from others. In some small way. I always liked indoor recess as a kid, maybe that's why I might...just a little.

Irony is a circle

Toto's Africa was a bit of a joke, now it's awesome. It started with Dax Shepherd and Kristen Bell, then Stranger Things, then Weezer. Now we just blast it full volume.


Running through the cemetery at dusk, listening to Master of Puppets, a black cat stares me down.


I have to believe that people mean to do good. Even if the chasm between what I believe is the right thing to achieve that good and what they believe is the right thing to achieve that good is so vast.

Celebrities are angels

They are here to tell us how to feel. And how to move on in times of hardship and difficulty.

It’s a 2 party system, you have to vote for one of us

Beliefs can act as signals for other beliefs, which means that you may end up being lumped into categories that don’t suit you. Examine each belief, each perspective, is it worth holding on to? You will be judged by your twitter feed.

I Failed the Test

I failed the test and yet here I am still working. Who is the test for, what is it for? If you are testing to find employees you may not be finding the right employees. But of course only someone who failed the test would respond like that.

Be ice cream, or be nothing.

Got a great hair cut last night from my wife. Last night, hair. Tomorrow we'll learn how to hunt and skin a deer, after that who knows, build a hut maybe, start a new civilization. We're finally free from the shackles of modernity and all its inherent dependences. We'll all be Ron Swansons by the end of this.

Flat Earth Tonight

I want to start a conspiracy theory blog or channel in the style of the Colbert Report, completely ironic. The problem is that it will get popular for all the wrong reasons, just like the Colbert Report.


You can’t help but feel what your child feels, every fall, every scrape, every frustration, every joy, and every laugh. It’s an instantaneous 1:1 empathetic ratio, like E.T. and Eliot.

Maze runner

We’re living through the early part of a backstory for a young adult dystopian sci-fi novel.


Compartmentalization is no longer possible, accepting the fact that work and home life are intermingled and inseparable. I can no longer distinguish between activities. Maybe this is the way it is meant to be. Pre-industrial revolution style. We'll all be encouraged to go back to work, but will want to stay home. The opposite of women in the workforce after WWII.


Last night I dreamt that someone complimented my air guitar. One can dream...

The plot of Snow White makes no sense

The Evil Queen in Snow White wants to be the fairest.  Yet, she makes Snow White fall asleep forever peacefully contained in a glass case and she herself drinks a potion which turns her ugly and old.

bran garbage

My wife has pointed out the numerous grammar mistakes in these posts. It's called brain garbage. That being said said, I should probably get grammarly....shes not wrong.

You, me and Dupree

Some times Owen Wilson, is just way too Owen Wilson for me to Owen Wilson.

Puzzles and TV

I don’t need friends, restaurants, communal spaces, or large gatherings to have a good time! I can make my own fun.


I gave myself a rating of 6.2 yesterday. As a human, taking in account all of humanity. Which seemed brutal at first. But if you put Jesus and Buddha on this scale at around 9.8, 9.9 or so, (not 10, they weren’t perfect either) and hitler below 1 somewhere. 0.2 maybe. I think 6.2 is pretty good rating, in might be too high.


It’s difficult to stand up for your beliefs especially when they are small and can be dismissed. I know I can’t stand by my minor convictions under pressure, but maybe it’s good practice to do so, those big ones rarely need to be defended.

House Arrest

I have nothing to talk about because I’ve been inside working and discussing TV shows and social media all day. I have to replenish the well. Time to go see a concert or go to an art gallery. Haha. We’re all going to die.

There’s a great JG Ballard short story where two volunteers have decided to participate in an experiment to remove their ability to sleep. They start noticing that the room is becoming smaller and smaller until, in their minds, the room and then are squashed into a singularity and the one supervising the experiment watches them suddenly become vegetables.

That’s how I’m starting to feel right now...I’m too pretty for jail-time.

Strange days

Strange times we live in, I keep hearing people say that. Was there ever a time lived in that was not strange? We keep moving the goal post forward into weirder and wilder terrain, because I guess we’d die of boredom if we didn’t.


I am taking my connections with people for granted less these days. Having an option breeds complacency, today is too busy, there’s always a chance to reach out to that person tomorrow. When you can no longer meet up with a friend for a coffee, or a drink, when that option has been removed indefinitely, you realize that you never had any option. The complacency and comfort you felt was an illusion. You are either in the act of connecting or you are not. Your circle is either engaged with you in a moment or they are not. There is no standby mode.

flight patterns

How will human behaviour evolve from this? We are all distancing ourselves, keeping 2 meters apart, moving in circles at the grocery store, will this behaviour be ingrained in us now as a survival instinct, will we hesitate for a moment before giving someone a handshake or a hug, wondering what is being transferred, who we could be unintentionally harming in the process.


Famous people don’t need to use hashtags. Unless it’s for charity. Hashtagfamouspeople.


The dust shakes off eventually and we all turn into diamonds or some other metaphor.


To always depend on the kindness of strangers is insane, being pleasantly surprised by it every once in a while seems to work for me.

now or never

I am so often repelled by the things I read that it makes me not want to participate in the discussion. Now I'm worried that if I don't speak, I'll lose the opportunity.

Creature Feature

How many documentaries, feature films, tv miniseries and books will be written about this moment in history and how many will be released this year or next? And we’ll watch as if we hadn’t lived it.


We’ll have to do this again sometime, without the death and disease, where the entire production wheel comes to a grinding halt for a little while.


The Pitch Perfect Trilogy rules! It's like the first Bring It On, only better... if you can imagine that. John Michael Higgins and Elizabeth Banks kill it. "my time is like a toddler in tiara...precious and short" - Keegan-Michael Key in Pitch Perfect 2. That's right, that line is from the sequel. Get into it.


What does it mean to say something is surreal? We only got real. Waking life is real, dreams are real. We can’t classify something as more or less real. A simulation is real, if there’s an afterlife, that will be real too.


There is an idea that says if you work really hard and focus on your goals, good things will happen for you.

I'd like to rephrase this. Chill the eff out and do what interests you, share it with others, don't take any of it too seriously, chances are, no one's listening, no one cares, and we're all going to die soon anyways... Amen.

more nonsense

Can't we all just get along, separately, at a safe distance?

little miss sunshine

Is Sufjan Stevens gone forever? Did his gentle indie stylings just bless us with their presence in the mid-oughties and then disappear forever? Maybe the future isn’t twee, maybe only the past is. What in the hell am I talking about?

print it

'Why Can't We Be Friends' by War, has two small mistakes in the intro. It must be one of the most popular intros in all of pop music and yet they left the mistakes in. Did the mistakes make it popular, does that subtle bit of humanity and humility lend itself to reference so easily? If they were larger mistakes, or if the mistakes didn't exist, would it be as popular? When do you sand the edges off, when do leave them sharp and honest? When it's so tempting to edit and clean, when do you print as is? Does it matter? Are we all just rolling the dice?


Ironically this is the only time I've ever truly felt like a citizen of the world. We are all united in this plight. This is not a national issue, not a racial issue, not a class issue. Maybe this is what the world needs in some twisted Watchmen way.


Dear life, keep being awesome, even in times of insanity. Best plague ever. Having a lovely time. This was supposed to be an in depth analysis about how the show Gossip Girl is a modern allegory for the life of F. Scott Fitzgerald, but I’ve had a very enjoyable Saturday. Stay healthy, wash your hands, and binge watch Gossip Girl.

fear is indecision

When people don't know what to do it makes them scared. Give them a task and the fear disappears. Even if the threat remains.

black swan

A black swan is an unpredictable event that is beyond what is normally expected of a situation and has potentially severe consequences. Black swan events are characterized by their extreme rarity, their severe impact, and the widespread insistence they were obvious in hindsight. - Jim Chappelow - Investopedia

Black Swan and Anti-Fragile were two of my favourite books consumed last year. These are 2 of 5 books in Nassim Nicholas Taleb's Incerto series. I enjoyed Skin in the Game as well, but these two drove the message home for me. Now is a good a time as any to read them. You won't be going out much.


If you think a goal or possibility is out of reach, it’s impossible to take the first step, there’s no motivation. If your goal is as close as walking to the store, you don’t think twice about it. Everything can be a walk to the store.


A discussion today brought to light the impact of this current pandemic, although I put little stock in the gravity of this, it was made clear how mass reactions to something so tiny, smaller than a cell, can change history. The wind blows and the whole world is tossed around with it.

No Request Party

No requests, I'm spinning this record for me thanks.

Personal oath

I promise myself I will never worry about anything ever.

Giants pt. 2

Maybe I can say that a little more clevererer and a little more adage-y. 
If you compare yourself to giants you’ll always lose. If you appreciate their company, they might let you stand on their shoulders.

Yeah...that was a good.


I hold myself to high standards and compare myself to giants. Maybe the only way to reach those standards is to be thankful that these giants exist, and what they give. It certainly feels better than making comparisons.

Let's keep it simple

Everything is easy until it isn't. Everything is simple 'til it's not. Everything makes sense until it doesn't anymore. Let's keep it simple.

hustle and flow quote

There are two types of people: those that talk the talk and those that walk the walk. People who walk the walk sometimes talk the talk but most times they don't talk at all, 'cause they walkin'.

other people

Building versions of other people in your mind; what they’re thinking, what they want, and how they’ll react to you, is pointless and dangerous. Decide who you are, step forward, and let them decide who they are.

You'ren't /jɔː(r)nt/

You can make a contraction out of 'you are' ("you're") and 'are not'("aren't"). So you can make a contraction out of 'you are not'. You'ren't /jɔː(r)nt/ . I'm Shakespeare.

the future is twee

My wife was re-reading my one-liners to me and I still find them hilarious. If you can make yourself laugh really hard at something, that no one else is laughing at or even gets why it's funny, it becomes that much more hilarious. You are simultaneously laughing at how insane or how stupid you are. Not sure which one.

master of reality

The nightly news is poisonous to your mental health. Panic is induced instantly, when you hear about some viral outbreak, as your child coughs in the next room. It's not an outbreak, it's just being sick, it's not markets in free-fall, it's a good deal on stocks if you're smart enough to take advantage of it, he's not the next president, just some asshole with a few gaudy hotels. When we hyperbolize everything, we separate ourselves from reality, frame by frame, creating gods, demons, martyrs and sensation.


Infinite content

These crave ads are slowly wearing me down. If everyone shares their crave account and everyone shares their Netflix account and everyone shares their Spotify account and everyone shares their Prime account. I think we can get infinite content down to the price of water.


The Dark Tower series was my favourite book series, I remember reading the ending and being disappointed, now I can't even remember what the ending was like. I've started listening to an audiobook in the series that takes place somewhere in the middle, written after the others. And it really doesn't matter what the ending was like because I'm enjoying it. Stories are so much more than a beginning a middle and an end. They're worlds and histories and characters above all else.


I didn’t care much about my work situation until it started to change, and I started to change it. I think it was something I pushed aside because I didn’t want to think about it. How many things do we say we don’t care about that we actually need to change. What else am I subconsciously ignoring?


Some random one-liner brain garbage. I thought these were hilarious when I thought of them. Now ... meh. Also highlights the issue I have with Will Smith which no one else seems to comprehend, my horror when someone eats pizza with a knife and fork and how much I love the word twee, and dislike 'the future is...'

The world needs more will Smith. Wait....that doesn’t sound right.

Crime is always at the top of the crime chart in America.

If you are eating pizza with a fork, it’s either not very good pizza or you are bad at eating.

Plant based sausage party.

The future is twee.

Iain M Banks, you spell your name wrong.


Don’t try to surf, don’t do it. The less you do, the more you do. Let’s see you popup. Popup! That’s not it at all, do less, get down. Let’s see you do it again. Popup. No. Too slow. Do less. Popup. Popup. You’re doing too much get down. Popup. No. Remember don’t do anything. Get down. Popup. No, we’ll you gotta do more than that.

Kunu knows.


A roast only works if the person enjoys being roasted. If you aren't enjoying it, what are you doing? Also, it just makes the roaster look mean, and they're not, they're doing you a favour, providing you with a gift. Take it gracefully. Laugh at yourself, it takes a lot of courage to brutally mock someone to their face, respect it.


bus guy

Someone got on the bus today and couldn’t figure out how to tap his card on the reader, after many failed attempts he said to the driver “I’m not a bus guy”. But that is exactly the type of thing that a bus guy would say.

The space you inhabit

At what point are you 100% comfortable with taking up the physical space you are in? The essence of self-worth. I’m mostly there, 80-90% comfortable with saying "I deserve this space”.

the ? hour work ?

In the past I would try to not overwork, now I think it's a good thing, if you want to. If you want to overwork for a week, what's wrong with it? Just take it easy next week. I think sometimes we can pay too much attention to the clock. We don't have to work 9-5 everyday, every week. Let's work 9-9 for 6 days this week and then 10-2 1 day next week. Go with the flow dude.

Give the People What They Want, Even If They Don't Know It Yet

I have a new philosophical theory on art:

When a style/motif/mode is being craved by society, its initial appearances do not have to be great, perfect, polished, or of the highest quality, in fact this may be detrimental to its acceptance. Examples of this are the earliest forms or protozoa of different genres. Examples in movies: Some of the first horror film types in their respective genres; 'Night of the Living Dead', 'Texas Chainsaw Massacre', 'The Blair Witch Project'. Examples in music: the earliest of any genre or the earliest of different movements; 'Bob Dylan', 'The Velvet Underground', 'The Stooges', 'The Pixies', even early revivalists or 2nd waves of genres, 'The White Stripes', 'The Strokes'. The works here stand out by what they don't contain and what they solely focus on or omit. They didn't have to be good. They just gave the world what it was craving. I came up with this theory while listening to the title track on 'Is This It?' and thought "This didn't need to be good, it was just needed". 

This also could be utter nonsense. I'm not sure.


Never meet your heroes. Never read their twitter feed. Some icons are best left in the dark. What a person puts forth is much more important than an online persona. Not every medium is made for every human being. There are hundreds of different car models, but less than 10 social media apps. Maybe I should make another one.

A million in prizes

If anything, this is an exercise in exposure. Small steps into the sunlight until this vampire becomes a day-walker. Some are smaller steps, some are larger. But I’m getting a tan either way. I’m looking forward to the day that I have crocodile skin like Iggy Pop.

Gotta Wear Shades

In recent years I've realized I spend more time looking forward than back. When I was younger I was under the assumption that it was supposed to be the opposite, that as I got older I would become more nostalgic and reminisce, or be filled with regret for past mistakes. But instead, I'm looking forward to the future, maybe this is the fine definition of optimism, or of happiness in general. Eagerness over nostalgia. Even anxiety or dread about the future, is better than regret, because there is still a small grain of uncertainty contained within it.

Dream Factory

I worked on set in the film industry for less than a year. I remember someone calling it the dream factory and I thought that was accurate, if you've ever worked in a factory, it's the same. If you work in a factory that manufactures cars, you don't get to experience the cars, you don't get to enjoy the cars or take them home. You just make them. It's the same with the dream factory. From a creative vantage, as a musician and composer it is an incredibly rewarding industry to work in, as I would assume it would be as an actor, director or writer, from that perspective you are dreaming the dream. But from a technical one, you're part of an assembly line.

70 to 85

The highest rating on Rotten Tomatoes is not given to the best movies, it is given to the movies with the least amount of flaws. Controversy won't get you over 90% which makes sense, the rating should be read as 90% of people enjoy this. One reviewer didn't rate it at 90%, 90% of reviewers rated it positively. I am coming to terms with this. I'm starting to think the best films are rated between 70% and 85%. Not too many obvious flaws, but an enough character to be divisive.

Give me your eyes I need sunshine

Perfection is not the goal. I just saw one of my favourite bands. At times their appeal to me is unexplainable. Their melodies often alien and discordant. The singers yelp and scream their way through each song. The keys are distorted. The drums shuffle along. Perfection is not the goal. The math doesn’t add up. Maybe Christmas doesn’t come from a store. You can manufacture a lot of things. There are certain combinations that are greater than their individual parts. This can only be discovered through experimentation.

2 out of 3 ain’t bad, but it ain’t awesome

Which brings up the question of what is work and what is it for? If it’s just for money that’s a pretty low bar to set. I want my work to be satisfying and interesting, and rewarding in and of itself. And I also want to know that I’m helping people. I can get by on 2 out of 3, in regards to money, interest and contribution, but always reaching for the trifecta.

the customer is always/maybe/sometimes/never

If a person is dissatisfied with your work, no amount of money or motivation can make the work more enjoyable. If a person is happy with your services, the quality of your work soars, as does your enjoyment, and you would do it for free knowing you have helped another person.


I wonder if when engineers, architects, or scientists win awards they use it as a platform for veganism or voting or abortion rights or climate change. It seems odd that this soapbox is only appropriate when you pretend for a living. I don't disagree with the causes, or the speeches. And fully support the sentiment. It just seems strange to me. Maybe it's because all causes need an icon to promote them, a path-dependence to side with. Those with fame now have to be political, the times demand it. Hollywood is now woke...on awards night anyway.

The Zuck

It's good balance to have the occasional social presence being hacked. A comforting reminder that there's always a way to get a message out, even if it's only for hijinks. I often think about V for Vendetta and 1984, and get nervous about the massive role tech plays into every facet of our lives, even as I contribute to that role. I'm glad there's people out there that can hack a verified account, just in case Zuckerberg decides to release a few million killer drones upon anyone who unfriends him. Just in case.

stay out of it

I don't like to talk politics too much. It generally doesn't make me happy to do so, because of this I try and avoid discussions. I think if anything the past few years of American politics has shown us what a farce the show truly is. Take it seriously and it will be bad for your health.

better than most

A string of small accomplishments may not add up to anything great, and if they don't they may just be a string of small accomplishments, and that's still better than most.


I'm learning that if you are doing things because you think you have to, instead of wanting to, you're just making life for yourself and others miserable. No one likes a martyr, no one wants to be around one. Take a nap, chill out, treat yo self.


I feel like these pieces of brain garbage when strung together are starting to develop their own tone, separate from a stream of consciousness. Now I've started naturally to write what only fits into that tone. It's still me, but filtered. Everything in its right place.


Why is it that losing celebrities feels like losing someone we know? Even if they are lost to us because of crimes, sexual misconduct, disgraced and shunned from the limelight, even if deservedly so, there's still a sense of loss, for the people we thought they were, the ideals we fashioned for them to fit into, now gone.


This moment was made for you, by you.

Take a moment to enjoy it, always accept it, then ask yourself

"what am I trying to tell myself?"

The Choice of a New Generation

I think the battle of generations is primarily fought between 20-30 and 50-60. Maybe this is where the distance in the understanding of the world is concretely realized.

Maybe I never full joined the battle because familial generation party-line was divided across a few lines. My older brothers being born in the 70s myself being born in the 80s and having a niece born at the tail end of what is considered millennials on the cusp of Gen Z being raised in our home at the same time I was becoming a teenager.

A generational divide never made too much sense to me then, and it doesn't now.

The way we are currently judging what defines these generations is through how they most commonly consume media. If you can separate yourself from that, then you are free from those divides.

If you think the previous generation handed you a raw deal, and you live in the western world, you're probably wrong.

If you think kids have it easy these days, you're probably wrong too.

Give up the fight, every struggle is relative and individual, and most of them are not that different. The struggle to be heard, understood and to make a difference.

Ill Communication

Everything is communication.

Friday, it hit me with clarity that my current role was to make sure two machines were communicating with each other properly, that they understood each other. At first this made feel a bit inhuman, soulless. Then I realized that the purpose of these two machines talking to one another was that so a few people had the ability to communicate with many, many, more people. It was a chain, a person on one end, a string of machines, then another person on the other end. That is all we are doing, sending messages. The value of the message is everything.

Self Contained

Some friendships don't need a common ground, a common interest, or even a common set of beliefs. Some friendships just exist in a vacuum without anything keeping them alive. They are completely self contained. They have no reason for being. Yet there they are. Sometimes these are the ones that last the longest, because they never had anything propping them up to begin with.


I'm starting to realize that everyone is smarter than you at something and dumber than you at something else. Someone new to the problem will often point out a solution that others have overlooked. Sometimes answers are there in our faces and we are continuously looking around and under them for a more useful or inventive solution. When you're floating around in space and your pen is not working, just use a pencil.


Here’s a random one line interpretation of some Oscar nominated films, see if you can guess the movie, play along at home. These aren’t all the movies in every major category, there’s no logic here, I’m just being an idiot.

Sweet report Kylo Ren.

Hey buddy, whaddaya say we get a couple beers, smoke some acid and rewrite a little history.

How long does it take to kill Al Pacino.

I don’t know, this is a war movie, it’ll probably win. Cuz not enough war movies have won Oscars.

Taxi Driver....but with a clown.

Biopic. Sad.

Biopic. Inspirational.

Wasn’t this nominated 20 years ago? Did it win then? It won’t now.


Sweet divorce Kylo Ren.

Scarlett Johansson is in every movie now?

This seems like a Soderbergh film... is it?


This reminds me of that movie from the 90s with Michael J Fox ... Greedy, only good. This looks awesome actually, I really want to see it. Subtitles though.

Game shows

Are we entering a new era of game shows?

Every night there's a new game show on TV. Are cable networks just throwing whatever they can at the wall to see what sticks? Live entertainment is now on your phone, on demand quality content is on Netflix, Crave and Prime, but where do you find the game shows? Cable. They're cheap, they're weekly. The last ditch effort of a dying medium.

The Masked Singer is awesome though.

Drugs and Literature

Watching The Basketball Diaries...DiCaprio was a great actor from the beginning. How many people are that good from the start? Again, maybe acting isn't that difficult. It doesn't matter, DiCaprio is amazing in this at 20, 21? Jim Carroll was a junkie, a poet, an author, and was in a band. So New York.

I'm not too interested in reading books like this anymore, after you've read some Burroughs, Welsh and Bukowski, you're like, okay, it's hard being effed up all the time, I get it. You feel like an it.

That being said I think Naked Lunch is a masterpiece and almost totally incoherent. One of those rare reads where not just the plot, not just the tone, not just the content, but the format in which it is presented is so unique that it stands alone. American Psycho is in this category too. Completely unique.


I watched Joker the other night and I'm still not sure how I feel about it. I think it was a good movie. Maybe. It had all the collective parts of a good movie, but something felt missing.

I could feel the influences coming at me almost every other shot Taxi Driver, King of Comedy, American Psycho. Maybe a little Requiem for a Dream here and there. There were many scenes that I thought were incredible. But I didn't quite get what this movie added to the Batman story or even to the culture as a whole.

The Joker's origin story has always been a bit hazy, mysterious, perhaps deliberately so. Maybe the problem I had was that it tried to nail that story down so clearly. Here is why the Joker is unstable, here is why the Joker is a villain, he is actually a sympathetic character with mental illness, who went off of his medication. Okay...I guess that makes sense. But part of what is likeable about the Joker, the most iconic villain of all time, is that he seems like he's having a good time doing terrible things, we only really start to feel that near the very end and by then, the tragedies that he has endured are still fresh in our minds. Jaoquin's performance was fantastic, most of the cinematography was great, I liked the music as well. I'm just not sure I liked the movie. Maybe I'm not supposed to.

The tone was soooo dark. But is that the end goal of a superhero movie, just more darkness to legitimize the content. Did it need to take place in the DC universe at all? The parts involving the Wayne family seemed tacked on. Did we need to see Bruce's parents get killed? Couldn't this just have been Taxi Driver: The Clown Version? Or a stand alone Joker origin story. I'm still wrestling with this. On technical points alone it's Certified Fresh, but on gut reaction, I'm not so sure. And I think gut has more weight on this scale.

10 Pages

Stephen King has written a lot of books. Some of them are great, some of them okay. Which got me thinking. If you write as much as Stephen King, you're bound to have a few hits. I'm told he writes 10 pages a day. That's 3650 pages a year, even if those books are the size of It or The Stand, that's 3 massive books a year. You want to be Stephen King? Write 10 pages a day.

Pure Entropy

I wanted to keep it pure, everything pure. And yet nothing can be. Erosion is pure, rust is pure, decay is pure.

Final Act

Dreams are not always one offs. Sometimes they are sequels or prequels or part of a larger cinematic universe. Last night I had a dream in a setting that had already been used once or twice in previous dreams. The scene played out differently than the previous instalments. I said goodbye to the backdrop, I don't think I'll be dreaming about it again. But, you can never be sure.


I was having a discussion about great mixes with a friend of mine and a point that he made was that to an extent, mixing really doesn't matter, as long as its decent enough sounding, it's not as important as people make it out to be.

We both went on to cite examples of great new and classic records with terrible mixes. I would extend this to almost everything. A great editor doesn't write the book, special effects don't make the movie. And now more than ever I also think consistency, and/or reliable output can be weighted above all else. Not just the artistry or intention of a work, but a continuous striving to achieve more, reach higher, and to stop polishing last nights work, it's already stale.

Big ups

I'm starting to come around, I think Chet Hanks is my favourite Hanks...besides Tom.

It must be difficult living in the shadow of someone accomplished like that. Take Jakob Dylan for instance, he wrote some fantastic songs and put out a great record, but how can it possible hold a candle, your crotchety old man wrote "All Along the Watchtower", you may as well have been a magician. If Jakob were anyone else's son he would have his own identity, and notable music career, but nope, not even close.

What if Chet Hanks turns out to be the next Eminem, will he be take seriously? I will answer that for you, he will not. Maybe it's the last great hurdle for rappers. Kanye made rappers with Polo shirts from the suburbs cool. Drake made former actors on Degrassi TNG cool. Maybe that's Chet Hanks' barrier to break down.

I'm going to start celebrating the black sheep. Why is Colin Hanks a great Hanks? I mean, I loved Orange County, but basically we're getting a mini Tom at a discount rate. Chet... we don't what we're getting, I'll buy that ticket every time. Big ups.


Social media has never felt legitimate to me. Maybe because it was conceived at the end of my high school life, with the dawn of friendster and myspace, it still feels like high school. I don’t get the jokes, I don’t get the lingo, (oh is that how we say something is cool now…oh okay). It always feels forced to me and I’m always wondering about who this new cool kid is that commented on some other cool kids post. It’s my own insecurity I guess because I can’t just pretend to get it, it feels fun and funny sometimes, but through gritted teeth and a grimace. This turns me into a passive viewer, unwilling to participate even when I feel inclined to do so.

I’m just not there any more, I used to care about being cool, everyone does, to deny that is simply virtue signalling a different kind of cool. I don’t think it needs to be brought down or that its ruining society or anything like that, it’s just not for me right now. Maybe it will be one day.

Another way to look at social media is different kinds of cliques or clubs, if you analyze the language used for each platform it is very distinct it has distinct tone and a distinct sound. When you are among a group of friends that you’ve known your whole life you fall into that pattern of talking, a rhythm a cadence, you use certain words more than others, this is natural.

On social media, it is not natural, but it still exists, Reddit has a different tone than twitter, facebook has a different tone than instagram and so on, 4chan, this is partly due to the users that dominate each platform, as well as the platforms inherent functionality.

Engage in reddit long enough and you’ll probably feel like a know it all, engage in twitter long enough and you’ll think you are quick witted, enough IG and you’ll think the whole world is living a better life than you. It’s all a show, none of its real.

I suppose this isn’t real either, just another show, and more virtue signalling, "the anti-marketing angle, that's a good angle," maybe I'm only comfortable because I can't tell if people are reading it, maybe I'll install analytics to get that endorphin rush, but it feels like it’s more on my terms. No likes.


‘It doesn’t matter what you get in algebra at all, unless you’re going to be an algebratrician.’ - Chris D’Elia

I've been reading a lot of Seth Godin lately, along with other people who aren't crazy about our current educational system (Peter Thiel). It makes me question how I'll approach educational choices for my son. I generally trust that he'll learn what he needs to learn through experience, and will be inspired by the fields that interest him. But should I take actions to change the trajectory? Home school, private school, Waldorf, Montessori. Will it make a difference? Should he have a bit of everything? Or will he find the path to a life of curiosity and perpetual learning through his own will, regardless of the structural template he's placed in for a few hours a day?


Rap music is all about attitude and nothing else, Kanye’s lyrics are mostly idiotic, but when he yells ‘heeuuuuuh’ it’s hard not to get into it.

I would extend this to all types of music but rap more than any other. I think this is why rappers can make great actors, they’ve already honed an attitude and a character. Another question would be why is it easier for musicians to become actors but not the other way around.

See Scarlett Johansson, and Keanu Reeves. Exceptions to this rule Drake and Childish Gambino. Maybe rapping and acting is interchangeable, but not rock and acting.

Maybe Jeremy Renner will dismantle this theory.

infinite loop

For the previous post “thanks again”, I don’t know Apple's predictive implementation is some how a reflection of what I usually type on my phone, machine learning that has custom tailored the next plausible word for me to use, or a default generic English speaking businessaterian.

The feedback loop is always in production always beta testing offering different reflections of me to myself and checking for accuracy. With this in mind, is there a threshold where technology will know me so well as to gratify all wishes and desires the second or even slightly before they come to the surface of my mind?

Thanks again

Thanks again to all of the guys that work on this week and to be sure we can get together for sure thanks again thanks so you can be sure you can get them done and get it out of your way and then you get a chance thanks again thanks.

This message was brought to you buy Apple’s word prediction. Thanks again.


If a day is not going well, sometimes it’s best to cut your losses and start fresh. Not everyone wants your lemonade. Yesterday it felt like road blocks were magically appearing for me, I took my cue and ran away, the benefits of being a contract remote employee.


People hate job interviews, but I’m starting to think they are the best part of any job. If you get the job then it’s just a job, if you don’t then you need to find another job. The interview is the only point where you can see the potential and the value of yourself in a certain role without actually working there, also, if interviewed correctly, illustrates what you will learn from that job. 


My child is obsessed with the color blue, I wonder where and how this starts, this rampant adoration for one of an array to choose from. Something must have struck him that this color is so interesting and fascinating that it must be discussed above all other colors.


Intelligence means nothing. It’s what you are doing that means something. Potential has no value because it is common.


I think it’s important to give yourself as much space to let your mind wander as possible. If you stare at the walls to long, they start to close in.


I’m getting paid more now than I’ve ever been paid in my life, now that I'm being paid more the less important money is to me. Importance can then be seen as an indication of lack. If your health is important it’s because there is a threat of weakness. Or if this job is important there is a fear that this job will be taken away from you. When you realize that money is not important, it comes when it comes, this job is not important, the next one will come, nothing is important, then you hold all the cards, you are willing to take risks, hold out and do what you want.


Ricky Gervais was the best thing about the Golden Globes, his daring made the rest of the show seem trudging and rote. The audience reaction revealed how stuffy the relaxed version of the Oscars actual is.


I'm compiling a list of all the books I've read or listened to this past year.

Zero to One, The Startup Way, Black Swan, Anti-Fragile, Skin in the Game, White, So You've Been Publicly Shamed, Bitcoin Billionaires, The Big Short, ReWork, The $100 Startup.

Last year I probably read only one book, maybe 2 at most, the year before that, nothing. I've fallen in love with reading again. You can tell where my interests are leaning by the content.


"All science is physics or stamp collecting." - Ernest Rutherford

There are variations on this sentiment regarding physics as the father of all science, or the only real science, because all understanding in other scientific fields is derived from the understanding that the laws of physics provide.

In the realm of self-improvement I would extend this same quality to meditation, if you start with this, all other improvements will eventually follow. Committing to a daily practice of meditation for only a few minutes every day has changed my life over the last two years, in all areas of my life. But it started with meditation, everything else is stamp collecting.


Parenting is silently convincing yourself of the reassuring statements you make aloud.

Punk Rock is Capitalist

Punk rock is capitalist, DIY and aggressively self-centred.

The revolutionary rock of the 60's is socialist, communal, free and inclusive.

New Wave basks lazily in its conservative wealth.

Grunge is introspective.

I've always been attracted to Punk Rock.